Tuesday, April 2, 2013
This is my 500th post. I've been writing and sharing here for 5 years. I've tried many new things, had some success and failure. I've made a couple babies, lost a few pets and moved. It has been a wonderful time. I want to thank you for coming along! I love that this serves as a true online journal for me and I can look back and see the evolution and the bits that have stayed the same.
One thing, which I find mind blowing this morning, is that I have been a full time stay at home mom for nearly 4 years now. It is true, I tried a few months of part time work, but it wasn't worth it in the end. And that is really saying something. I have never had a single job for more than a couple years. And I liked this job so much that I wanted to do it again. I have never in my life been as fulfilled, frustrated, drained and energized by a job. Everything else I ever did was just for a paycheck. I went to work just so I could afford to leave. And of course, being Mama all day, everyday doesn't afford me anything I can buy. It doesn't accrue vacation. It has no retirement plan (maybe this one isn't true?) The health benefits bite and the sick time is negative.
But I won't be trading it in for at least another year or two. It is so much harder than I expected. Way grosser. Seriously stressful on my mental health. But one sweet word or thoughtful gesture and I am in love all over again. A baby snuggle, a polite interaction from my son. It is all so worth it over again.