Thinking Before Speaking

I promised myself I'd write something this week.  So here I am, trying to figure out what to say.  I feel a bit overwhelmed.

I'll start with this- kindergarten has been a roller coaster so far.  I've started to fear the phone ringing in the middle of the day.  I'm not sure what I expected before E started but it certainly wasn't this.  In some ways it is as hard as having him home since we are always thinking up new strategies to help him out in school.  I always think we are getting ahead and then suddenly he takes two steps back.

I can tell you one thing.  He is different than other kids.  Not all other kids but certainly "typical" kids.  He cannot control impulses.  He reacts so strongly to situations that might go completely unnoticed by others.  He is obviously very smart but that isn't enough to be successful without constant support.

I tell myself that is a lesson for me in impermanence.  Now is not forever.  This reality is only here today, tomorrow may be very different.  Of course, that gets me wishing to see what tomorrow will be like (please let it be easier for him! for us all!) but rushing today away does not make tomorrow more beautiful.  It only makes today gone, lost and missed.  So today we talk over the things that went wrong and the things that went right.  We go through the rules to remember (he has quite the long list now.)   We hope for understanding on all sides.  We love.